This episode of FtM Diaries, my little mini-series of YouTube videos documenting my transition from female to male, is the longest yet. Episode 5 deals with my recent 30-pound weight gain, emergence of new body hair, and my experience with giving myself injections. I answer questions such as whether I’m afraid of having surgery, if I’ll miss any part of my female body, and my thoughts on pansexuality. I also touch on my infuriating experience with the district court about getting my name legally changed.

At the end is a short video of me actually giving myself my injection with a humorous narration, so if you’re not comfortable watching an inch-and-a-half-long needle skewer my thigh, then just stop watching at the part where I lip-synch and make a goofy face.

You can watch the previous episodes on my personal YouTube.